positive awkwardness..

  Everyone hates awkward moment, including me. I truly dislike it as it always links to embarrassment, haaii..!
I hate the part when you're late, have to take the public bus back home and then suddenly... You're old classmate boarded the same exact bus with you. You have to sit beside you're old classmate just to prevent any curiosity but when you both haven't actually spoken for let me see... 3 years?  Correct! I've been through it and it actually happened today. AWKWARD!

  What else should you talk about? School and studies of course, but since this week is exam week, we talked about our exams and how annoying it was. I didn't think I came across being busy body ('So how much you got for chemistry?' 'What about physics?' 'Addmaths was tough right?So how much you got?' 'OMG!? She was the highest in class?') Something like that. So, that was kinda embarrassing...

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

Flashes!! A phalanx of photographers running,chasing our backs. Trying to get a snap of my sisters and mine. Getting in our limousine while few bodyguards pushing away those paparazzi that are fighting to get near us.
The CHAAL SIS, well-known for it's fashion magazine and clothing line. WOE!! So awesome! And myself, as the best physcologist in the world. Great. Clutching a Gucci handbag, wearing PRADA stellitos, Marc Jacob's dress and smelt like Calvin Klein's latest fragrance. Clark, Clark , Clark ! Walking with my 4 inch heel towards the table for my speech about my latest storybook I wrote... Ahhhh..
That is just a second of my next 10 years.. Hope it's reality!

Somehow, you have to embrace it and stand back up.

It's tough to go through failure in life. But, that's part of life. Right? I don't want to hate 2012, like what I've done to 2011.

Since, this is the "Last" year... I want to enjoy it and accept everything that have happened, not frown and get stuck in between disappointment. I've learn from the pass, I used to mumble, HATE my life!

Thinking, "Why me? Why can't GOD see my grief?" Everytime I'll cry, stressed myself with the little things I've done wrong.... Not anymore. Those days are gone and lets open a new chapter, to start all over again.
Not even 2 months in this New year, I've gone through a lot. Still learning. Changing myself. And the most important thing, learn from my mistake.

I hope, I can stand back up on my feet and accept every bull on the way. Not everyone is a winner.But is the effort that counts :)